I can handle a few changes and reschedules. Situations come up, I get that. But this year has been a situation that has led to so many disappointments.
I am generally a flexible person. I can adjust and adapt. I go with the flow and roll with the punches so changes in my schedule do not throw me off. And it’s ok, really, that I am home more. I have lots to do here.
Lots of sorting — both in my mind and in our home.
Lots of purging — both in my mind and in our home.
Lots of re-organizing — both in my mind and in our home.
And I am happy to be getting these things done, but it feels awfully strange to now not have the freedom to do what I am used to doing. I think that loss of the freedom to travel without all the stress of the coronavirus is the main disappointment because it does impact my schedule.
I don’t like…
…all the time and energy it takes for extra precautions!
….not seeing my people!
…the ugliness of people’s attitudes!
…the pressure and stress that so many are under!
…the anxiety and stress and exhaustion my family and friends are experiencing!
I continue to hold onto my hope and faith in God. He is on His throne. I know He loves me and is working all of this out. Things are uncomfortable at the moment but this is earth. And while I do love my life here, this is not all there is!
Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. 2 Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.
3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.
Romans 5:1-5 NLT
I will be publishing some extra material on PrayerPoints over the next several days leading up to something I think you should know more about!
One thought on “A Million Disappointments…”
Most of what you write has me nodding in agreement & whispering, yes, Lord. Thank you for articulating what, I suspect, many of us think & feel. Blessings to you & your family!