I opened my mouth the other day and something really ungracious came out. I realized it immediately and reminded myself, also out loud, that God’s grace for me has been unending. I, too, have behaved in ugly, hurtful ways and yet, He loves me. I need to extend that grace.
Sometimes my memory isn’t the greatest, but when I have been wronged, my memory is amazing. I can remember the circumstances, the emotions, the damage. It can put me on a sad path. Surely others I have known over my lifetime can remember my hurtful and selfish behavior that has impacted them. Maybe I am even someone they need to re-forgive on a regular basis.
In my ungracious moments, I need to remember that I took this situation to God and I gave it to Him. I asked him to help me see that person as broken, in need of forgiveness, and to help me not get stuck in a cycle of anger and resentment over the circumstances. I may have already walked through the process of forgiveness but some vestiges have hung on. I need to loosen the grip of my justification for my anger and forgive again.
The trouble is, these are some of the things I don’t seem to forget. Remembering and walking through the steps of forgiveness and God’s provision in the process help me remember that I, too, have hurt others deeply and it keeps me honest about my own need for forgiveness. Every day I need to be reminded that I need of a Savior washed clean by Baptismal grace.
I am not proud of my ugly moments, but they serve a greater purpose. My mouth speaks what my heart is holding onto. And it is important for God’s Word to shine in my heart and change me, and my responses.
For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of. 35 A good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and an evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. [Matthew 12:34b-35, NIV]
An interesting thought from author Seth Godin today:
You made my day
When your day gets made, how long does it last? A made day–is that different from a normal day?
Perhaps it would be more accurate to call it a made hour or, if we’re going to be quite truthful, a made minute.
When something bad happens, we can revisit the humiliation and anxiety for months. But the good stuff, if we don’t work at it, can pass right by.
We get what we remember, and we remember what we focus on.
May God bless you as you come to terms with your own sin and forgiveness as you process unforgiveness you may harbor against others!
2 thoughts on “Forgiveness”
We are all human, but it is hard for me to imagine you having an “ugly” moment or speech. Have a blessed day. Thanks for your message that greets me each morning. 🌞
Unfortunately, it is true. Of course, those who are easier to love don’t often see that side of me!!! And you are quite welcome!