Selective obedience

I can be pretty rebellious.

I think it is because of several early run ins with corrupt authority. I will take requests under consideration but I will always question motives. Even though this might be my natural bent, it’s not my fault that it has been so well developed. It is in part my own sinful nature and the sinful nature I bumped up against from 6-16 or so.

I do know and trust God completely, but I still find myself doing the easy obedience things and not the ones that take some effort or denial of self. I can do easy. I can do hard, but that seems to be where I am a bit resistant.

But selective obedience isn’t really obedience, especially when we are talking about the God of the Universe, the God who has blessed me with so much.

Who am I to pick and choose?

I have been granted free will — for good and for bad. It would be much easier if I would just decide once and for all to follow and not

…wander

…get distracted

…stumble

…fall

…question

…hesitate

…protest

…throw a fit

…get lost

…try to negotiate something different

…forget

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And yet He loves me still!

And He loves you, too!

Step by step He will lead me. And I truly do want to follow Him all of my days. I just need to hang on the hem of His garment and stick close!