I don’t mind going against the flow a bit. Sometimes I like to do it for the sake of argument.
But I have to ask myself why I rebel against the very thing I want? It makes no sense.
And then I remember this verse from the Bible:
For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. Romans 7:18-20 ESV
And the struggle is real. I can hear it in my mind. And, if I close my eyes, I can almost see the battle play out before me.
It is a condition of my human nature. . I know I will not win every battle, in fact, it isn’t even me that can win. I have God on my side if I can follow the Holy Spirit’s guiding. And God, through Jesus, has surely won the war.
What good thing have you been rebelling against?